today is tiring, alarming

they said we should not get tired of things..life is beautiful actually..but i had this conversation with my friend and i got fed up..i know this is wrong but im trying to cheer her up and..

deng796: ah ganun ba??nuh gnagwa mo??

deng796: bc ba ba??

mjtv_99: sobra kaming busy..

deng796: mis you

mjtv_99: dmi kming changes s skul..

mjtv_99: miss u too

deng796: ate gusto ko sana magkita kita tau habang well pa ko

mjtv_99: habang well k pa?

mjtv_99: my sakit k b?

deng796: uu eh

mjtv_99: wat sakit mo?

deng796: something happend kc

mjtv_99: wat nangyari?

deng796: kc po nagka stroke ako

deng796: mild lng nmn

mjtv_99: ha?

deng796: at sa halip na sa uta

mjtv_99: yan kulang ka siguro ng rest

deng796: at sa halip na sa utak

mjtv_99: ano?

mjtv_99: di ko gets

mjtv_99: ate dang..

deng796: sa mata tumama

mjtv_99: dont me too pessmistic

mjtv_99: take care of yourself

mjtv_99: para nmng pinparusahan mo sarili mo

mjtv_99: dont make things the end of time..

deng796: may bumarang ugat sa ryt eye ko

mjtv_99: can it be operated?

deng796: laser

deng796: ksoo it will cost me 35 thou

mjtv_99: so wats ur plan

deng796: pero ua ko second opinn sa kay dra. sy

mjtv_99: go

deng796: pero kuha ko second opinn sa kay dra. sy

mjtv_99: pagamot k na kagad..msama ung hinihintay pa kung ano ano..

deng796: tumaas ung blood sugar ko eh

mjtv_99: diabetic ka

deng796: im hoeless

mjtv_99: hayz

deng796: im hopeless

deng796: tnatamad nko

mjtv_99: ate dang..kc nmn dati pa nmin ikw nireremind

deng796: wla lng

mjtv_99: we cant help u if u will not help ur self

deng796: mag papagamot ako hirap nmn kc wala nmn akong pera

deng796: ate kaw pan nk2alam nito

mjtv_99: humiram..magloan..

mjtv_99: ate dang..please have faith

mjtv_99: pray din

deng796: panu la nm ako mahihiraman

mjtv_99: dont lose hope

mjtv_99: kapatid mo..

mjtv_99: kamag-anak mo

mjtv_99: magloan k sa SSS

mjtv_99: sa pag-ibig

deng796: nilapitan ko n mga kamag anak ko

deng796: laging sabi titingnan daw nila

deng796: my loan pko sa sss

mjtv_99: ate dang..sa iba k n lng humiram

deng796: la rin pera sina ate

deng796: xmpre 3 n ang anak eh

deng796: mas klangan nla ng pera

mjtv_99: have u tried

mjtv_99: alm ba ng kapatid mo..

deng796: if ill be unlucky and totally loose my sight i guess mas gugustuhin ko pa mamamatay

deng796: uu lam ni ate

mjtv_99: ay ewan ko ate dang..

mjtv_99: ung mga bulag nga eh nabubuhay at nakapagtrabaho pa

mjtv_99: if uve been kinder to ur self before

mjtv_99: what u have to do is have a postve mind set

mjtv_99: gawa lhat ng posibleng mangyari

deng796: bah tama na nmn..

mjtv_99: alam ng bf mo?

deng796: i guess its enough

deng796: gato n nga ako

mjtv_99: panong enough ate dang?

deng796: ganto n nga ako

deng796: bulag pko

deng796: auko nun

mjtv_99: eh nanay ko nga nadiagnose ng 2002..bumalik ang sakit ng 2006 hindi sya nag-give up..cancer un ate dang..

mjtv_99: kw iniisip mo na mabubulag ka palang..pero di mo pa alm if un nga mangyayari..

mjtv_99: there's so much life ahead..

mjtv_99: wag mong idegrade sarili mo

mjtv_99: sabi nga love ur own

deng796: na ive experience different things already

mjtv_99: sino pa magmamahal sa sarili mo kundi ikw

deng796: tama n cguro un

mjtv_99: nothing i would say na ate dang..

deng796: may diabetes kac ako

deng796: unti unti nilalamon ako g sakit ko

deng796: maxadong maselan

deng796: at kahit anung gawin ko

deng796: malaking pera an involved

mjtv_99: di ko n alm ate dang..

mjtv_99: im trying to help u..

mjtv_99: im cheering u up pero gnyan ka

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that's the end of our conversation..i felt bad about it..life is really beautiful but there are people who just cant see it even if they have both clear eyes..