Monday, December 27, 2010

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Holiday Emotions

I envy those who can write whatever their hearts tell and those who can pour their emotions with their words..

I stare this monitor blankly what will I type using my keyboard. My heart is feeling heavy right now with the recent events..my dad just had his operation in his prostate a month ago, my aunt died because of cancer, my boyfriend had his left body numb but his recovering now, and my uncle died last Christmas day..

They say we should have positivity. Yes, but I can't help to think and be gazing to nothingness as if my heart was being sucked into vacuum, emptiness. As if dementors have sucked my happiness within.

I feel alone. I felt alone.

No one actually knew this but my wedding was at stake just few days ago. I was about to say the wedding's off. I was so confused what to do. I don't know who to talk with this matter. My bestfriend's too busy. But i do understand her actually.

Because of our budget, his budget is low now..he's taking seven medicines for his heart, blood pressure and others. He has given me two options:
Option A: Civil wedding in Feb and church wedding in December
Option B: Simple church wedding in May and continuous budgeting for a new home..

I don't want to pressure him and stress him out because of his health condition. Though honestly, it broke my heart. I told him long time ago to have his budgeting and I am too. Though due to unavoidable circumstances and health problems, most of the money were alloted to it.

Because I don't want to pressure him, I chose option A with a weak heart. I asked what is his plan if we'll be married in Feb., I am still teaching here in Lucena. How can we stay in one roof if his uncle will be coming soon, there will be no room for me and our family to be.

If he hadn't been too honest maybe the wedding was off. His uncle will be coming but if that happens, they had transfer a new house. There's so much mess in his work, that he wanted to find a new one sooner too. He has plans to go to Dubai too. Too much heartache.

I asked him to talk to his parents and sisters first about the wedding. I was too tired to think that time. My heart was tired.

Then I told him okay option B. But let's talk this face to face.

He then asked if I will be happy in the future with him. That time, I can't answer him back because as I said tired and my heart too. My tears fell on my cheeks and my eyes can't stop pouring all those encapsulated emotions bursting.

December 24. I said sorry to him for being selfish. Sorry for the ill reaction I had. I was just too tired and pressured. He said sorry too. We reconciled and I think there's a happy ending waiting for us.



Thursday, November 4, 2010

Movie Marathon

I really had a great time with past editors of the Heartbeat..I missed them so much..Though, di maxadong obvious..

I never thought of attending because i'm too damn busy. But I'm hit by my guilt because whenever i asked them to have some of their time, they give it away at once.

Anyway, we had a good laugh and I missed that with the new staff this year. or am I just pressured of the reality that i'll be leaving them soon.

The Haunting in Connecticut and The Social Network were our movie choice though the latter was given a small amount of attention. Mark Zuckerburg was too fast to speak and they cannot comprehend the words being spoken.

We ate chami, the famous coffee cake, fish ball dipped in lumpia sauce, piknik..mmm missed those food..

I missed them, in short..:)

Christmas is near

Binuksan na ang mga Christmas lights sa tatlong malalaking kalsada ng Makati; sa Ayala Ave., sa Makati Ave. at sa Paseo de Roxas.

Ito ang tatlong mga kalsada na lagi kong nadaraanan noong nasa Maynila pa ako. Nakakamiss din. Masaya kasi ang pakiramdam ko kapag naandun ako. hindi ko alam pero yung adrenaline ko ang bilis. Para laging may aksyon.

Parang nabubuhayan ako sa ingay ng Lrt/MRT, ang busina ng taxi o bus, ang boses ng mga tao nagmamadali. Hay.

Pero kahapon, binuhay ko ulit ang account ko sa jobstreet. Nagbabasakali ako na maghanap ng trabaho. Mayroong mga clerical positions na available pero sa Taguig, Libis. kelangan ko sa may Quezon City area lang para hindi ako mahihirapan sa pagcomute. Nag-iisip tuloy ako kung itutuloy ko ba talaga ang propesyon ko bilang isang guro. Trainor siguro pede pa pero napapagod ako masyado para maging guro. Gusto kong magpahinga. Hay.

Naisip ko ding mag-business kaya naisip kong tanungin si Gino kung may balak ba si Amen a magbukas ng bakeshop kasi may available resources ako at interested din ako. Pero for the mean time gusto ko muna maghanap ng trabaho para may maibigay din ako para sa pamilya ko. Dream ko din kaya magkaron ng bakeshop parang Pan de Manila ang style. Mala-coffee shop din. Kahit hindi siya maging super successful, eh maging kilala sya sa magiging market namin at masustain ang income. Sana magkatotoo ito. Gusto ko talaga.

Anyway, bago ako mag-isip ng kung anu-ano ay kailangan ko munang tapusin ang paggawa ko ng grades at siguro tapusin na rin this month until next month ang workbook ko. Cheer up, Skye!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Facing the Reality

I just read Aldrin's blog..thank you..


I have to say that I was too rude for my students for the past weeks. I am sorry too because they have to do things seriously, the regional press conference is a serious business and i would like to go to the nationals.

This is my last year. and I have to prove myself at least to those who have high eye brows on me. But most is for myself and for my students.

That's why i got disappointed that the training with Manila trainers was cancelled due to many questions that should have at least helped the students growth and development. Good thing was Ma'am Kathy is always here to give me options and enlightenment.

i have so many things and issues knocking my brains out. First, my dad's condition, the grades that should be finished before the RS, the training of the students, the wedding soon, and how can i rekindle my time and presence with my fiance.

I'm sorry HB because I have to leave you and leaving you is to hard. Im loving you but you have to be matured. There are always people who come and go. And maybe this is my time to say I have done enough.

I'm just afraid of who will be cuddling you enough to grow and to mature. But im hoping for the best. Sabi nga ni Sir Abet Oriacel knina, "pagaling ng pagaling na talaga ang HB! galing nyo tlaga!"

I hope others can see that too. But they are too busy of looking at our faults especially my faults (whatever it is). I am hoping too that it is not in a personal level because that is too unfair for the HB. I am trying to do my best. I am trying to do new things. Innovation maybe is really in my blood. Journalism makes me more creative and to think beyond the box. I would like to risk just to hone and improve my students' skills, attitude and totality.

This makes me sick.

They just can't understand me. :(

...as always.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Moral Booster

I am really not a trainer.

What i do is just to chat with my students, tell what I know, and tell them what they should review or read.

That's all.

But today, as I told my dad that "you are actually there as a moral booster." Wow, it was a hit! I really never thought of it because I believe that my students were the one who really wrote each of the articles, writings they had won and failed.

I just cheered them up and told them that they have to pray before their competition and to think positive. That's all.

But now I am boosting myself up...Yes, I am not a trainer but I am their moral supporter...

Hahaha..

para lang si Marlu. Laging bumibisita sa computer lab..magpapalamig lang. Pero alam ko na gusto nyang tumulong pero di ko lam ano papagawa at di din niya alam kung paano tutulong...at least nadun sya di ba..:)


Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Tula ng Isang Guro

Dahil hiningan ako ng tula ni Makoy Dakuykoy..

Sa Loob ng Silid-Aralan

Isinulat ni: Nicole Vlamfort

Katatapos lamang

ng aking lesson sa araw na ito…

Umupo ako sumandali

At pinagmasdan ang aking

Estudyante

Ang silid-aralan

Ang paaralan.

Kaya ko pa bang

Magtagal dito?

Sapat pa ba ang aking sahod?

Sasapat ba?

Sa pambayad para sa mga

Pang-araw-araw na gastusin

Sa gamot ng aking ama na

May prostate

Sa pag-papaaral ng mga

Kapatid ko sa kolehiyo

Sa pag-iipon ko para sa

Aking kasal sa kasunod na taon

Sasapat ba?

Stressed ako.

Ang dami ng che-checkan na papel

Ang daming paper works.

Ang daming kumpetisyon na

Kailangang panaluhin.

Ngunit sapat ba ang

Natatamasa na benepisyo?

Buti pa sa ibang bansa…

Nakapagpatayo na ang aking co-teacher

Ng bagong bahay

At may negosyo pa para

Sa kanyang magulang

At kanyang mga kapatid.

Maalwan na kanilang pamumuhay

Mula sa isang-kahig isang tukang

Pang-araw-araw na buhay.

Hay,

Hindi ko naman sila maiwan

Sino na ang magtuturo sa kanila?

Kung walang magtitiyagang magturo

Dito sa sariling bayan?

Sino na?

Ano pa ang mahihita ng mga

Mangmang at mga

musmos?

Kung susumahin

Kulang ang silid-aralan

Kulang ang mga libro

Kulang din ang mga guro.

Paano na aangat

Ang kalagayan ng ating

Bayang naghihikahos?

Kaya pa ba?

May pag-asa pa ba?

May magagawa ba ang

Pangulong bagong luklok?

Sana.

Sana

May magawa siyang

Aksyong

Kapani-paniwala

At hindi

Panandalian lamang,

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Three were left out, but they are still the best!

I thought I can move on...

But I hope I could.

After the Division School's Press Conference result came out. I know I had to do something. To think something.

I prayed hard before the start of the program, I asked God, "Lord, pabalato mo na sa akin mga bata oh. Please. Silang lahat manalo." But it slipped in my mind the number 18. The lucky 18. My number besides 8. That I understood that three will be left out.

I was really thorned knowing it. Im half happy and half sad.

Seeing Marlu cried made my heart broken into pieces. I can feel his pain. I wish i could carry all the pain that he's feeling two days ago. I have seen his pictures but i couldnt handle the fact that the note in his work is "not following directions". But what duh is the instruction.

However, I was happy to see that Mara is okay. She's one of the new batch (including Marlu). When I told her, "Ate Mara, next year ulit!" She told me, "talaga mam? Sige po." I can still see her joy. And Leanne, I know her pain too but she's tough enough to handle it.

How can I tell the rest that I will be leaving soon. Just give me time. I will have time. What I have to do is to prepare them for the regionals and for the nationals. Cross fingers. And that we have to produce a very well prepared and meaty newspaper.

here we come Sta. Rosa! See you Bohol!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Letters to Juliet made me cry again for love

Dear Claire, What and If are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will. All my love, Juliet

I'm starting to fall in love again with him..and literally my heart is aching now..aching coz he's so far from me..im terribly missing him..every second that im away from him is like taking away a percentage of my oxygen for breathing..

Monday, September 13, 2010

may magnanakaw sa tabi ko

Ano gagawin mo kapag may snatcher sa tabi mo?
a. deadma
b. sisigaw
c. isumbong sa driver
d. sakalin ang snatcher

Ako? Simple lang. Kinublit ko, sabay sabing "Miss, pede k namang umipod kasi malaki pa ang space para makaupo ang bata"

Sumisiksik kasi sya dun sa babae malapit sa driver. Ang babae ay may dala syang malaking bag, pinamili mula sa SM at may kasamang bata. Ang mandurukot eh may dalang jacket at maliit na bag.

Lumingon sya sa akin (ang mandurukot), napanganga..actually, mukha syang may sira sa pag-iisip. Nangilabot at nanlambot ako hanggang paa..Napansin na rin ng ibang pasahero..Tinitigan lang nila..Bumaba na ako sa jeep kasi nasa cathedral na..Gayundin ang babaeng madudukutan...

Nagtataka kasi ako bakit masyadong sumisiksik ung ale sa babae..natakot nga ako akala ko eh tinutukan na ng kutsilyo..kaya chineck ko ng mabuti..buti na lang binubuksan pa lang ung zipper..

kakapangilabot..

Pagkabili ko ng kandilang pantirik, nakita ko ulit ung babaeng madudukutan..sabi ko "Miss may nakuha ba sa 'yo? Kasi kaya tinawag ko pansin mo eh sumisiksik sa'yo at kita kong dudukutan ka." Ramdam na pala nya kaya lang nga eh nagtataka sya na bukas ang kanyang bag. Malalim naman daw bag nya..Ang nakapagpahupa sa akin ay ang salitang "salamat" mula sa bibig nya..

Kaya un pumasok na ako sa simbahan upang sumimba..Linggo noon..

Im super happy with him

It was heaven whenever I'm with him..You know the feeling that you are safe, cared and cuddled..pampered..Words are really not enough to describe the feeling if i'm with Gino..I love him so much..and i'm so excited for the day to come..:)

Monday, August 16, 2010

Kelan ka kaya magkaka-Palanca?

Ito'y itanong ng aking tatay sa akin nung ibinalita ko na si Makoy eh nanalo ng Palanca para sa kanyang koleksyon ng tula na Engkantado..

isang hampas at sampal na magkasabay..

Sinagot ko na lamang, pano ako tatay magkakaron eh di naman ako nag-submit ng aking mga tula..

isang kirot ang tunay na naramdaman kasi alam kong mataas at malaki pa rin ang pangarap at nais ng aking tatay mula sa akin..

binigo ko sya na ako'y maging isang:
- doktor
- nars
- accountant
- makapunta sa ibang bansa at makapagtrabaho...

ngunit di ko sya bibiguin na maging malinis at hindi maging buntis bago ako ikasal..

yun na lamang ang mapanghahawakan ko..

pangakong di mapapako..

Kelan ka kaya magkaka-Palanca?

Ito'y itanong ng aking tatay sa akin nung ibinalita ko na si Makoy eh nanalo ng Palanca para sa kanyang koleksyon ng tula na Engkantado..

isang hampas at sampal na magkasabay..

Sinagot ko na lamang, pano ako tatay magkakaron eh di naman ako nag-submit ng aking mga tula..

isang kirot ang tunay na naramdaman kasi alam kong mataas at malaki pa rin ang pangarap at nais ng aking tatay mula sa akin..

binigo ko sya na ako'y maging isang:
- doktor
- nars
- accountant
- makapunta sa ibang bansa at makapagtrabaho...

ngunit di ko sya bibiguin na maging malinis at hindi maging buntis bago ako ikasal..

yun na lamang ang mapanghahawakan ko..

pangakong di mapapako..

Two more sleep

I am to be 29..
one more year and i will be 30

Is my life worth it?

I mean the 29 years of existence
The joy, the laughter and the triumphs
or will i still experience pain, misery..
confusion and challenges I never thought?

What i await is my day..our day
the union..
this is the happiness I was waiting
long ago..

i am looking forward to be
Ginovesse's wife
to be the mother of his children
His partner, friend
and lover..

but as of this moment,
i will still enjoy
to be the mom
ate, kakulitan of
the journ kids...:)

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nde po ito poem..random thoughts lang po..

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Monday, July 26, 2010

Mixed NUts

There are many things I have to accomplish, many things to push through, many things to do, many things to contemplate, and many things in mind.

I'm like a mixed nuts..to salty, crunchy, and tasty..

I had many things in store for whoever would like to have a relaxing and appetizing snacks.

If I can only be a super computer, I am looking forward to finish everything. Though in fact, comptuers will only work if there will be an input from the user. Thus, I have the heart and mind to think things over. I have a body and heart that could be tired..physically tired.

Now I have to cater what people wanted me to do..but i need my body, heart and soul including my mind to work together, to feel satisfied. I wish I will have more energy..more love..more understanding..

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Rainy day

Maybe because I'm in a clutter right now..So many stuff I would like to do and need to finish...

But well, it's raining..it's like telling me to stop..relax, get a book and have a drink of hot coffee..

i wish ginovesse is here..

Monday, July 12, 2010

Why do we have ENVY in this world?

FROM http://www.allwords.com/word-envy.html
Etymology: Existing since the thirteenth century: from envieFrench, envie, from invidiaLatin, invidia, from invidereLatin, invidere, "look at with malice".


FROM
http://www.thefreedictionary.com/envy
en·vy (nv)
n. pl. en·vies
1.
a. A feeling of discontent and resentment aroused by and in conjunction with desire for the possessions or qualities of another.
b. The object of such feeling: Their new pool made them the envy of their neighbors.
2. Obsolete Malevolence.
tr.v. en·vied, en·vy·ing, en·vies
1. To feel envy toward.
2. To regard with envy.

FROM Wikipedia:
In Religion

Envy is one of the Seven deadly sins of the Christian Church. The Book of Exodus [Exo 20:17] states: "You shall not covet your neighbor house; you shall not covet your neighbor wife, or male or female slave, or ox, or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor."

In Islam, envy (Hassad in Arabic) can destroy one's good deeds. Therefore, one must be content with what God has given to them by saying Maashallah (God has willed it).

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Until now, I can't comprehend why there are people who are envious of my state. My mom died two years ago. I dont have good work..I am just enjoying my stay because of my students.. my awards are not my awards..those are the honor duly given to my students..not mine..

As we were talking about this, we were surprised that almost all events that was happening for the past four or five years are pointing back at me..all were happening because of some stupid person who thinks his/her insecure maybe because I was loved by others or because I have some triumphs and victories or maybe because I am to be married sooner..

What's wrong with his/her life, he/she got a good married life..loving spouse who earns enough or maybe more than enough and loving kids.

Or maybe because I was loved by my in laws or maybe i am enjoying my life now.

Well at least i am not hurting anyone. and i am not getting credits of others. He/she was..i have good ideas or maybe better for our unit, and i thought he/she was proud of it..and he/she was until she owns everything i said, everything i contributed..

Now, who's lonely and alone?

I'm not..I have friends. :)

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Yesterday was fun with the Heart peepz

It was Kian's first birthday! I prepared by gift already the other day. It is a aqua and white jacket.

I was in a dilemma because I wanted to go to the parlor and drop by at Mam Kathy's tribute but Ktin texted to meet her before we go to the party.

In the end, I went to the parlor alone. Ktin got her gift wrapped by herself in the gift wrapping section. And off to Kian's birthday party.

The party was actually not a children's party because a large number of attendees are the parent's friends and colleagues. imagine there's a poker table? And the mommy, Jelyn, was really dressed up..It's like her birthday party..:)

But our friends got a good time..Ktin, Sweet, Jaydy and Lhen..we decided to have a coffee at Zymurgy..i had a steamer..they have cold..Sweet tried the peppermint and it tastes allerin..the mint flavor was not that good..

But we had a good laugh..we throw stories and laughters will burst afterwards..The expressions were "pak, tama, bongga" and the pamatay expression of Lhen "so"..

Then because of those expression, we decided to watch Here comes the bride while we have few shots at Jaydy's.

Tita and Tito was still awake and EM-em, let us carry her cute baby. I miss carrying one..and i like it to be mine..and id like to be a mom probably by next year..

hayz..anyway, last night is a good night..:)


Friday, July 9, 2010

Exhausting week

Today is red day.

Yesterday, actually this morning I went home at around 3am after our tedious task of completing the accreditation documentation. I went to school this morning too at around 830 because I wasnt able to read the alarm and it sucks.

It sucks in the sense that my energy was drained to 0 like an empty battery.

I need to recharge. Good thing is that my teammates went to work early and we finished the remaining 7 books at around 4pm. I'm glad that even we are very tired, we've managed to be beautiful and not to serious about life, coz we had good laughs while working.

BYe for now..

Monday, July 5, 2010

Got new book!

Finally even i wasn't able to finish the movie..I made my bf buy this book for me:

with the necklace/bracelet from gian, his friend from a vacation in CHina..


a letter from my fiance


I would like to share this with you..he gave me this yesterday..and this really made me cry..he painted this wood notebook for me..

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My Dearest,

This is a very special letter. you can tell it by the way i write. (very fancy!) I can also write in script. But this way special for that. This letter is special because it's the first one (sorry - with flower) not just the first letter. But the first letter that I wrote without any help from the internet. (wow) and the only letter that tells directly how I feel. I can just say "I LOVE YOU". But love is merely a physical ...err...emotional manifestation of certain chemical reactions inside our body. (yes, they are) also..

no more to say. Just added cliffhanger there...You have inspired me in more ways than any other inspirational and motivational posters out there. Well.. I can tell you how much the sun envies you because you are the brightest object in my eyes. But that's not me. What is me, is making you happy, making you smile, and being your future husband. Yeah! Thinking of just that makes me happy inside. (and sometimes outside) And this is me, writing you, to tell how much i enjoy writing this. Enjoy. It's really wonderful because I'm writing what I directly think of.. I intended to text you I love you then, But was afraid to, so I just said I slipped.

I proposed during our 4th monthsary because I was afraid to lose you. And I wanted to marry you even before we met. I just know who you are yet. (Those by the way were my answers to your questions). ANyway, it's been a long time since my hand and heart worked together and for that i'm congratulating them. I would also like to congratulate you. Why? Because you have a troph, and that's my heart, which is yours forever and everrrrrrrr.

I LOVE YOU so much! I hope this letter brings a smile on your face. (I made all of this)

- Yours forever and every tuesdays.

dee


Sunday, July 4, 2010

Monday, June 28, 2010

The Nature is really brilliant

We had a meeting this afternoon which lasted until 6 in the evening.

Recently, I was amazed by the different formation of clouds. I just don't know. Maybe, it's because of the photography class that I organized for my students. The lens actually thought me of seeing something beyond the lens, beyond the ordinary..and with that I learned more to appreciate the beauty of everything around me.

When I was in the information center, I looked up and was amazed. The cloud formation was breathtaking. Imagine that there a massive cumulus cloud (like a tower) and at the top of it there's a crown-like light shimmering..But my co-teacher said, Sir Navela, it's like there was a hole in the atmosphere that the light directly hit the clouds. Then looking beside the cumulus cloud is a cloud formation similar to a flag.

It was really amazing. I wish I had my camera on my side.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Hate this day

I hate this day because I miss my boyfriend too much..for a week, we seldom talk because he was always in an overtime in his work. i dont know if he's really in an overtime to finish his work or he just would like to get more money in preparation with our wedding.

Damn, i hate this feeling. I hate when we can't have ample time to check on each other. Though we are texting and he tries to call me late in the evening..it's not enough for me..hay..sadness..

Friday, June 25, 2010

cute date at toycon 2010



My books


I bought several books last summer and so far I have read only 2:
Warriors collection and Poems of Jewel..

The short stories of Neil Gaiman is sponsored by Ate Meg and I can't still finish it..

and awhile ago I bought another one..one hundred and one famous poems..:D


Saturday, June 19, 2010

1 year, 1 month and 11 days

randomly, leanne texted me how long am i engaged. I said one year and she insisted the exact answer...

and i was amazed it is:

1 year, 1 month and 11 days

Friday, June 18, 2010

Dreaming of him accidentally

I just need to write this..

Last night, we were just kidding around at FB..when Ma'am kathy replied on my fb stat :

Nicole Vlamfort [habang naglalakad sa dilim] nakasabay ko ang aking childhood sweetheart..

Wednesday at 3:06am · ·
Michael Borja
Michael Borja
drama lol
Yesterday at 1:40am · ·
Kathy Ursolino ✬
Kathy Ursolino ✬
teka, sino ba itong childhood sweetheart na ito???
Yesterday at 1:42am · ·
Michael Borja
Michael Borja
ndi ko din po alam hehe!
Yesterday at 1:47am · ·
Nicole Vlamfort
Nicole Vlamfort
hehehe as in super childhood..7 years old yata kami nito..hehehe..mark din pangalan..limot ko second name..:)
Yesterday at 1:57am · ·
Michael Borja
Michael Borja
so many mark in this world, marky where are you hahaha!
Yesterday at 1:58am · ·
Kathy Ursolino ✬
Kathy Ursolino ✬
hahaha... talaga naman... kinilig ka jen? =)
Yesterday at 2:00am · ·
Nicole Vlamfort
Nicole Vlamfort
nagtext nga knina..gm..
Yesterday at 2:01am · ·
Kathy Ursolino ✬
Kathy Ursolino ✬
aba aba... calling gino! calling gino! patay tayo jan =)
Yesterday at 2:02am · ·
Nicole Vlamfort
Nicole Vlamfort
nde me kinilig..share lang ung stat ko..weird nga kahit gustuhin kong kiligin eh wla pa rin..
Yesterday at 2:03am · ·
Nicole Vlamfort
Nicole Vlamfort
marky = makoy mam..si makoy, si marky na harmless...
Yesterday at 2:04am · ·
Kathy Ursolino ✬
Kathy Ursolino ✬
harmless ba si makoy??? hahaha
Yesterday at 2:28am · ·
Nicole Vlamfort
Nicole Vlamfort
hahaha..pde mam..:))
Yesterday at 2:35am · ·

ayun di ko maisip why I have to dream about him last night..the scene was i'm waiting for him to come because we have a rendezvous..basta di ko pa rin maisip why..

Then he came. He was so excited to meet me. I am not sure if he hugged me what I remembered was he was so "protective" and I called out my bf. I can see in his eyes that he didnt want to let go..he held me in his arms so tight that I cant move.. until I explained that truly the guy I am pertaining as my bf is really my bf..and he let loose..he said goodbye...teary eyed..

but what suprised me was I saw he has sort of eyeliner..then i remember his black shirt..then in my dreams i glanced twice seeing his pants is not actually pants..it's a denim mini skirt with lining - black and red..weird though..

then I watched this awhile ago..just would like to share..and I remembered Meg here...:D